Once in my life this was a very special day But now as this day came, I find myself frowning in dismay Funny how life can turn 360 degrees in a bit And all of a sudden change your past into something bittersweet Fortunately I have Someone whom I can turn to To refrain myself from wondering what I have gotten into It still hurts but I know I am still blessed He wants nothing else for me, only the best
It's been months. And yes, I still haven't moved on. Am still hurting, and I am far from being healed. Other people see me sporting a smile but behind that, I am still broken. What hurts the most is that I lost my best friend. Only a rare few know bits and pieces about my personal life, and none of them have the slightest idea of the things I share with you - my deepest, darkest secrets which I can only divulge to you. When you left you did not really allow me to speak to you even just as a friend, so now I have no choice but to keep everything to myself. My once closest ally is now merely a stranger - and I sincerely wish that the day I am able to accept this comes soon. Because for how long I can contain everything to myself, I don't really know.
“I've never forgotten him. Dare I say I miss him? I do. I miss him. I still see him in my dreams. They are nightmares mostly, but nightmares tinged with love. Such is the strangeness of the human heart. I still cannot understand how he could abandon me so unceremoniously, without any sort of goodbye, without looking back even once. The pain is like an axe that chops my heart. ” ― Yann Martel, Life of Pi Everyday is an internal struggle. And IT IS HARD. On one hand I want to be as positive as I can but the other part of me keeps dragging me down. It's been months. To some it may seem stupid that I still have not moved on until now. Been claiming that am one hell of a strong woman but here I am, still crying myself to sleep almost every night, thinking what went wrong and what I did to deserve all this pain. A happy outlook especially at times like this is extremely important. We need all the positivity we can get as it helps us to be healthy. As hard as ...
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