Hey you! Happy birthday! I miss you. So much. Nobody will ever understand it. Even I could not explain it. So many thoughts running through my mind. I'd like to blurt it all out, so that at least my bleeding heart could have some comfort as I release my grief. I do not understand. Why does it still hurt so bad? Why couldn't I just let go? I want to. I need to. To keep my sanity intact. Help!
“I've never forgotten him. Dare I say I miss him? I do. I miss him. I still see him in my dreams. They are nightmares mostly, but nightmares tinged with love. Such is the strangeness of the human heart. I still cannot understand how he could abandon me so unceremoniously, without any sort of goodbye, without looking back even once. The pain is like an axe that chops my heart. ” ― Yann Martel, Life of Pi Everyday is an internal struggle. And IT IS HARD. On one hand I want to be as positive as I can but the other part of me keeps dragging me down. It's been months. To some it may seem stupid that I still have not moved on until now. Been claiming that am one hell of a strong woman but here I am, still crying myself to sleep almost every night, thinking what went wrong and what I did to deserve all this pain. A happy outlook especially at times like this is extremely important. We need all the positivity we can get as it helps us to be healthy. As hard as I try,
Once in my life this was a very special day But now as this day came, I find myself frowning in dismay Funny how life can turn 360 degrees in a bit And all of a sudden change your past into something bittersweet Fortunately I have Someone whom I can turn to To refrain myself from wondering what I have gotten into It still hurts but I know I am still blessed He wants nothing else for me, only the best
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