Worthless

Hey you! Happy birthday! I miss you. So much. Nobody will ever understand it. Even I could not explain it.  So many thoughts running through my mind. I'd like to blurt it all out, so that at least my bleeding heart could have some comfort as I release my grief.  I do not understand. Why does it still hurt so bad? Why couldn't I just let go? I want to. I need to. To keep my sanity intact. Help!

Once in my life this was a very special day But now as this day came, I find myself frowning in dismay Funny how life can turn 360 degrees in a bit And all of a sudden change your past into something bittersweet Fortunately I have Someone whom I can turn to To refrain myself from wondering what I have gotten into It still hurts but I know I am still blessed He wants nothing else for me, only the best